ThatG1rl

These manipulative little verses Tactical shifts of opinion I guess you always get what you want Because of these strategies Of diversion This dance around your addiction Deceitful turns of phrase Small expressions With big reactions Attempting to coerce me into Something so irrelevant So caustic Sin and sin and sin And then absolution from the womb Wipes it all clean So you can begin again These fluctuations Rotting away your worth The internal resistance Difficult to overcome Can't wake you up So I'm folding

Whisper your curses Spread the cancer Look around So dense Glance at the floor Don't look directly at the eyes What am I meant to do? How am I meant to react to this? How would you react? I daydream about what I wish I had done for days Persecuted by the slow Fried chicken feasting a family meal Passing on your perceptions To receptive minds What a mess Generational contradictions And they get away with it Every fucking time I see hate in your eyes She speaks her thought aloud Must we use such harsh words? I guess so I'll keep mine to myself At least for today Walking away in shame I can't help but think I have lost

Verse: A conference Showcasing your Absolute morals So much resolve So sure you will change our minds I scan the room See the faces around me The smell of acceptance is Debilitating Debilitating Bridge Chorus: Could you maybe Clarify for me The principles of conviction One more time This inconsistent stance Perplexing Detonation appears imminent Intro Riff: But your devotion Will protect you Will save you Your so sure it will protect you So sure it will save you Verse: I hear you gasp And sputter It's getting harder to breathe With all this murky reason In the air You search for answers That will never come

How scared were you really? Primal minds are often wrong Did you feel comforted? By his reassuring words Your friends cradling you Telling you it will all be ok You never looked over Never saw it coming Did you feel regret? Did you feel remorse? Or were you grateful for the times you had Perhaps you were relieved It's all over now Your face hit the ground Did they scream? Did they cry? Was there silence? Did they call out your name It all fell on deaf ears They tumbled you off What did you learn?

Please forgive my delay commander There were matters that required my attention But of course my time is only a metaphor For something greater And slightly less complex But intricately woven into my Superior state of mind I do realise that you are not at all compelled To listen to a fucking thing that I say Just finished calibrating Now ready to measure The bacteria in the atmosphere Pointed fingers and stares abound I am not comfortable Standing on all of these toes Being dismissed is no punishment Fuck you lieutenant

Devious as they come Offering me delights Seems obvious where this is heading And still I follow the path Oblivious to the implications Gas gives off awkward light So I light another cigarette Daylight looms Such an ugly thought Almost as ugly as what I'm about to do A secret too strange to believe Yet there it is Devious as they come Offering me delights Playing to my ego and letting me win Devious as they come Offering me delights Let me know you Like no one else does I'll let you know me like Let you know one of my faces It has begun You think you know where it will end But you don't know What I'm here for It's not

Tears mean nothing to me I know they should, but they don't All this mess is wasted on me Take a number and take a seat Your external explosions are over the top And I find it hard to take you seriously Seasons that last only hours I'm struggling to keep up How can you continue to falsify Then accept Such a fucked up viewpoint How am I meant to behave In this particularly kinetic world A world you alone designed A world where you live, unaided Shutting out all of us Only letting in your beloved abuser He eats up your core And spits out the rest Destroyer of lives And you love it You yearn for him and his abrasive touch

As I combusted I felt the need to say; I feel your pain As you never felt mine This final analysis was so profound that my combustion Was no longer the point I had intended it to be My monologue of life has again been told And for what I'm obsessed with it I want to consume it So my organs can know it So that my insides can understand it The vacuum that is my life The virus of day and the release that is night The opulent course I have chosen Reeks of vanity and deception Dynamic but defective The answers let us down Spinning round in circles We all hit the ground